Have you ever wondered why NASA spends millions of dollar in
order to understand Mars?
That’s the first question appear in my mind when I watched
the show in National Geography. So what if there’s water in Mars? So what if
there’s oxygen in Mars? It’s still an unknown place which is far in the
physical distance. We won’t migrate to live there, right? Not at least for the next 20 years.
So, why we have to understand that? Thanks to my over
curiosity, I did a little bit research on the internet to understand the
reason. Based on NASA’s website, the objective of this exploration is to
heighten up the unknown which can be benefited for the human kind. Frank
Stratford, the founder of Marsdrive, wrote that this exploration was meant to test
our knowledge, our resourcefulness, and the limits of our abilities in every
way.
Limit is the word that usually be put on the same sentence
with human. As a human we have our
limit, we can’t do that, because that’s our limit. How we can know our
boundaries, if we have never crossed it?
I remember when I was 6 years old. I and my mom went into a
public swimming pool. I usually swam in the children pool. However, one time,
my Mom asked me to swim in another pool. She even dropped me up from the
children pool into another pool and just staring at me from the pool side, I
begged to her “mom, I cannot do it, I’m too small for this, I can sink in and
die” “Yes of course you can, look at that boy, he’s even smaller than you, if
he can do it, why you cannot? You need to be brave, don’t be afraid!”
Yep, afraid of the unknown, scare of change; that’s usually
be our limit. Don’t you think that when we are getting older and we tend to be
more hesitate to push the boundaries. It could be caused by more understanding
on the difference between fantasy and reality. You already knew how hard live
could turn when making a mistake by doing a change, by going out from the
comfort zone. Oprah winfrey on the Harvard commencement said that “If you
constantly pushing yourself higher, higher the law of averages predicts that
you will fall at some point”.
Fall, or we can called it failure, is the situation where no
bodies want to have. When you cannot
manage that thing, it probably could turn into a depression where you need an
expert help to solve that. I had one experience where everything felt go wrong
and world turn into a dark place; where I had to ask for a help from a psychology
in order to have a grip with my life again. I wouldn’t say that’s the nicest
experience to have. But, like Oprah said “There’s no such thing as failure.
It’s okay to feel bad for a little while. Give yourself time to mourn what you
think you may lose but the key is to learn from every mistake”
Fearful to make a mistake is another set of the lines which
keep us on the box. Since when we make a mistake, we felt wasting our time
which can’t get back. So sometimes in order not to waste our time, we stay in
that mistake like stay in the wrong job. Let me tell you my wrong job. I used
to work in strategic consultant firm where the boss was really intimidating. He
really likes to answer a question with a question in a very intimidating way
and he didn’t mind to speak his mind out loud “Raisa your answer is like a
kindergarten student answer”. I always relieved when I get back home especially
on Friday and depressed from Sunday morning “Oh God less than 24 hours I had to
go back to that office, why time flies so fast”. I didn’t even want to go with
my boyfriend after the office hours or during weekend as I really wanted to
appreciate that precious time by myself, alone. I stayed on that job for about
6 months because I don’t want to waste my first 4 months and learn nothing than
how to type fast, how to photocopy fast or how to make a good coffee. No way. I
can stand this job, this is just part of the success.
“I’m not depressed, I’m not depressed, and I’m just not…depressed”.
That’s the mantra that I usually repeated to strengthen myself every day.
Thanks to my friend who woke me up by saying that “Maybe you just need to accept
that the learning from this situation is to show that this job is….not into
you”. Yes, maybe I made a mistake by taking a wrong job or not knowing what I
wanted from a job, but at least I learned that “that job” is not the thing that
I want.
