Missing you :")

I received the video this morning on one of my whatsapp group. It broke my heart when i realized how true the video is. The video was talking about how time has changed our relationship with our "used" to be gank. How close we were in the college, how easy we were to just hang out and did fool stuff. But now? we were hesitated even just to say hi.

Sometimes, i am wondering, what goes wrong? is it because of the time? is it me who become a jerk? or you become a jerk and not willing to make time for this so called friendship?.

Or is there any reason beside that?

 I read an article which is saying "Losing touch with your old college friends is a natural consequence of growing older. It isnt solely up to you to keep every friendship you've ever had alive-some things fade out naturally, because they should. and that's okay".

Really?

This evening, i talked with my other friend regarding this topic. Her answer has succesfully blown my mind. She said "Raisa, people come and ago in our life. It's just like when we were passing by with someone on our way to go somewhere. Sometimes we are meeting this person longer than others because we are on the same road, has the same direction at that time. But when we reach our goal, we are eventually split our way. We should moving forward and continues our journey to reach our other goal. So if you are losing your friend along the way, that's normal. It doesnt mean that one of you is "the jerk". It's just because you are walking on different road".

I found her opinion very interesting because sometimes when bad thing happened in my life, i tended to put the blame on something (it could be on me or other people). But maybe, actually, there's none of the party is the wrong one.

It's just the road that was taken is different.
It's just the situation that has changed.
It's just us who has to grow up.

But you, my dearest friends, yes, you.
I'm still missing you.
Till we meet again,

Raisa

Pushing the boundaries

Have you ever wondered why NASA spends millions of dollar in order to understand Mars?

That’s the first question appear in my mind when I watched the show in National Geography. So what if there’s water in Mars? So what if there’s oxygen in Mars? It’s still an unknown place which is far in the physical distance. We won’t migrate to live there, right?  Not at least for the next 20 years.

So, why we have to understand that? Thanks to my over curiosity, I did a little bit research on the internet to understand the reason. Based on NASA’s website, the objective of this exploration is to heighten up the unknown which can be benefited for the human kind. Frank Stratford, the founder of Marsdrive, wrote that this exploration was meant to test our knowledge, our resourcefulness, and the limits of our abilities in every way.

Limit is the word that usually be put on the same sentence with human.  As a human we have our limit, we can’t do that, because that’s our limit. How we can know our boundaries, if we have never crossed it?

I remember when I was 6 years old. I and my mom went into a public swimming pool. I usually swam in the children pool. However, one time, my Mom asked me to swim in another pool. She even dropped me up from the children pool into another pool and just staring at me from the pool side, I begged to her “mom, I cannot do it, I’m too small for this, I can sink in and die” “Yes of course you can, look at that boy, he’s even smaller than you, if he can do it, why you cannot? You need to be brave, don’t be afraid!”

Yep, afraid of the unknown, scare of change; that’s usually be our limit. Don’t you think that when we are getting older and we tend to be more hesitate to push the boundaries. It could be caused by more understanding on the difference between fantasy and reality. You already knew how hard live could turn when making a mistake by doing a change, by going out from the comfort zone. Oprah winfrey on the Harvard commencement said that “If you constantly pushing yourself higher, higher the law of averages predicts that you will fall at some point”.

Fall, or we can called it failure, is the situation where no bodies want to have.  When you cannot 

manage that thing, it probably could turn into a depression where you need an expert help to solve that. I had one experience where everything felt go wrong and world turn into a dark place; where I had to ask for a help from a psychology in order to have a grip with my life again. I wouldn’t say that’s the nicest experience to have. But, like Oprah said “There’s no such thing as failure. It’s okay to feel bad for a little while. Give yourself time to mourn what you think you may lose but the key is to learn from every mistake”

Fearful to make a mistake is another set of the lines which keep us on the box. Since when we make a mistake, we felt wasting our time which can’t get back. So sometimes in order not to waste our time, we stay in that mistake like stay in the wrong job. Let me tell you my wrong job. I used to work in strategic consultant firm where the boss was really intimidating. He really likes to answer a question with a question in a very intimidating way and he didn’t mind to speak his mind out loud “Raisa your answer is like a kindergarten student answer”. I always relieved when I get back home especially on Friday and depressed from Sunday morning “Oh God less than 24 hours I had to go back to that office, why time flies so fast”. I didn’t even want to go with my boyfriend after the office hours or during weekend as I really wanted to appreciate that precious time by myself, alone. I stayed on that job for about 6 months because I don’t want to waste my first 4 months and learn nothing than how to type fast, how to photocopy fast or how to make a good coffee. No way. I can stand this job, this is just part of the success.

“I’m not depressed, I’m not depressed, and I’m just not…depressed”. That’s the mantra that I usually repeated to strengthen myself every day. Thanks to my friend who woke me up by saying that “Maybe you just need to accept that the learning from this situation is to show that this job is….not into you”. Yes, maybe I made a mistake by taking a wrong job or not knowing what I wanted from a job, but at least I learned that “that job” is not the thing that I want.

Fellow friends, in three 3 idiots, Fairnan said that “Life is a race, if you don’t run fast you will get trampled” and like in the horse race; the record is always broken by the fastest one. So keep pushing our limit by facing our fear, having a failure and making a mistake so that we can run fast and race to Mars.